r e w i n d n o t e ♥︎

foggy winter morn

squirrels dash, my heart follows

quiet laughter blooms

Labels: haiku

koi here!! good morning (or afternoon if it is for you)...

so i was job hunting again, and honestly, it’s a bit of a downer lately. every other role has ‘ai’ attached to it now. isn't it a bit strange to see the whole field tilt so completely? it makes things feel a little impersonal, you know? i see posts calling jobs ‘easy’ because they just let a tool handle the work, and it’s just… ugh. anyway, i know the part-time search is tough for everyone right now, but i’m determined to find something that doesn’t make me cringe.

on a much sweeter note, i have some good news to balance it out. i finally got my hands on the novel for long vacation by eriko kitagawa. (she wrote heaven’s postman, the one with hyojoo and jaejoong, which is such a lovely piece of trivia to me.) the only catch is, it’s in japanese. looks like i’ll be papago-ing each sentence slowly >:/ but that’s okay. i’ll finish the drama first, then i can see how the book compares, huehue.

that got me thinking about other little joys, like scents. we talked about perfumes a while back, didn’t we? >:000 so, for today’s qotd: what’s your current favorite fragrance? this year i got ck one eau de toilette, and wow, it’s so nostalgic. definitely a bottle i’ll keep buying forever, right next to my always-trusty davidoff cool water.

feeling like a quiet reading day today. my sibling lent me ‘i hope this doesn’t find you’ by ann liang, and i’m fully braced for a deliciously messy plot.

(random thought: i watched let's go! dream team ii yesterday and i genuinely think dongjun from z:ea should be on ninja warriors!!!!! he should go pro, i’m serious.)

ok, bai bai!

koi,out.

Labels: 2026年1月, entries

hello, hello. >:0

just looked into my sd card today and had a major facepalm moment ;; turns out i accidentally reformatted the whole thing at some point? so, rip to all my childhood photos and videos from my 3ds. gone. poof. a moment of silence, please.

Labels: 2026年1月, entries

Mike Alway's Diary

Kahimi Karie

Labels: 2026年1月, music

let me start with the pho (i had this monday, which is technically last year, hmmm....) i’m craving it right now ㅠㅠ. not even eating it, just spiritually thinking about it. the broth. the steam.... the emotional stability it promises- anyway, i feel much better today, but this week was a mess in a very stupid way :P.

my “unlimited” gb started acting funny. how did i find out? the tv wasn’t working. me and my sibling were fully ready to put on produce 101 s2 to celebrate their reunion (important cultural event!!!), but nope. tv said no. moved to my tablet. nope. even smaller. my phone. also nope :D so we just froze on ren’s majestic visuals, paid our respects, and called it a day ^^; not complaining... but.... the wifi was moving like my old 3ds trying to connect to the internet!!!!!!! painfully slow. like you can feel it thinking n buffering emotionally. it was supposed to expire in 3 weeks... very odd :/

i ended up using my ancient broken phone that somehow has a radio (legendary device tbh). a local station played david bowie and i just sat there like… okay… life is cinema actually :3. there’s also a station where you can submit music, which got me thinking (dangerous behavior). if you had to submit one song to a random radio station, what would you pick? something comforting? something unhinged? something to confuse commuters >:D

new day, same nonsense. hotspot on, data still doesn’t work :]. beautiful. we ended up watching hana kimi (for me, rewatching), the taiwanese version. i truly do not remember it being that unhinged. everyone is yelling, sprinting, committing to the bit at 200%. exhausting but kind of perfect. JUSTICE FOR MY GUY JIROOOO!!!!

also i was looking through apprenticeships related to what i studied, being all serious and adult, and then one listing casually said “use of guillotine”. my soul left my body ㅠㅠ. then i realized. oh. cutting machine. paper. not execution (luckily). very awkward five seconds in my brain.

anyway. pho would fix all of this. i just know it.

quote of the day:
“some days you just pause on ren’s face and accept defeat.”

currently playing...
changes by david bowie

Labels: 2026年1月, entries

거짓말(Lies)

god(지오디) 

Labels: 2026年1月, music

first post of the year and i wake up with a sore throat. love that for me. 2026 really said “ease into it” (by force).

anyway. i roll over, grab my phone, open spotify, put on nrg because comfort noise helps. and then. boom. london concert pops up. february. my brain goes blank. hello??? what do you mean nrg… they're still active??? (no) 

sore throat immediately forgotten. i’m awake. i’m alert. i’m spiralling.

so i do what any normal person does and sprint to a concert site. i see the name. i see a picture. heart racing. then i scroll. set list is all random djs i’ve never heard of. confusion sets in. plot twist reveal: it’s just some random dj who also goes by “nrg”. not that nrg. not my nrg. deception. betrayal. emotional damage. (putting the clown makeup on myself rn)

so yeah. no nrg concert in february i guess. i will live. barely. sore throat still there btw. rude.

still though. first post of the year. we’re back. hope everyone’s easing into january gently and not being jump-scared by fake concerts like me. rest up, drink water, be kind to your throat and your heart :]

currently playing: 거짓말 lie by god (v fitting. honestly my fave along with 0%)

edit: i forgot to mention this but uhh...... APPARENTLY WANNA ONE IS COMING BACK???? idk if it's a comeback? or a reunion, but I'm so excited!!!! GAAAAAH!!! okay, imma continue watching iu's palette interview w god. bu-bye.

edit: oh. it was a reunion teaser!! that makes more sense, lolol.

Labels: 2026年1月, entries