i’m officially too far gone guys... i said someone stop me but here i am, typing this out on my laptop while listening to A・RA・SHI on repeat ㅠㅠ i’ve fully entered the habataki high school delusions and i think it fits them so perfectly it hurts............. ;;

so here’s the casting post no one asked for. and yes, sho is my ichiban so i might’ve been a little extra biased with his route details hehe :3

Labels: 2026年4月, blogs

well, i just got back from a call. i had the coolest plans, i was going to take a course for something i was genuinely interested in, that being cybersecurity!! until the very last second when they asked if i had lived in the country for a certain amount of years.... i mean... no? i've been outside the country for a bit. so right as i was getting my papers ready to meet them in person, they rejected me............ i was so excited!! :0 LIKE WAHT?????

the person on the other line sounded even more devastated than me though, lolol. "ooh.... that's bad.... so sorry :(..... oh dear....." WHY IS THAT EVEN A CRITERIA?? i shall look into that later. at least i don't have to go out i guess, it's way too hot.......... looking at the brighter side of things..........

i'm glad it happened over the phone at least, because rejection in person is a whole other level of devastation. i'm a little shaken up but that's life!! maybe it wasn't meant to be. it's like i was little red riding hood skipping toward where i wanted to go, and the job turned out to be the wolf dressed as a delicious cookie waiting at the door. sneaky sneaky!! (speaking of wolf, happy belated 14th anniversary exo!)

but........ the thing is, cybersecurity genuinely fascinates me. i remember going on a business trip to fujitsu a while back. there was this guy who looked like batman standing in front of a massive screen showing a globe with cyberattacks being tracked across it in real time, just pointing things out so coolly. i was standing there completely starstruck. something about that moment just never left me, so yeah, the rejection stings a little extra knowing that ;; but eh, it's no big deal. i'm over it. it's gucci....... *sniff* *sniff*

Labels: 2026年4月, entries