r e w i n d n o t e ♥︎

i know for sure i don’t wanna be in the medical field. i know that after years of business admin lectures that nearly erased my will to live, i’m not fit for that either. but then i start thinking… maybe it’s not even about what i want. maybe it’s just about what i can do to survive out there. kinda bleak, i know. if it weren’t for capitalism, i’d just open a tiny lil shop. sell handmade things, paint a bit, brew tea, maybe serve cakes shaped like clouds or something… a hobby shop. sounds peaceful, huh? :[

oh man… idk if that’s me overthinking or not. but jobs really are such a weird thing to figure out. like, why does it feel like we gotta choose between stability or creativity? i want both!! it’s like i’m being asked to pick which limb i wanna lose LOL. but i’ll find something though, i’m sure :3 i’ll just keep moving n it’ll make itself known to me someday. maybe while i’m drinking tea in my imaginary shop or something hehe.

alright, koi logging out~ ㅎㅎ

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